Weirdo

有些時候你會是最自在的自己 跟某些人相處的時候 某些或許值得你信任會讓你感到自在的那幾個 會讓你變回年紀比較小比較幼稚比較不顧一切不負責任的那個 或許我要講的跟你所認識的好像不太一樣 但我只能說我很會演戲 有很多話我都不會說也不敢說我會把他們留在腦海裡讓自己解決 我不問問題遇到困難也不問碰到事情也不會說除非我已經把它解決 任何狀況我prefer全都留給自己 就因為這樣所以我惡夢很多 夢話很多說的永遠都不是快樂的口氣

I know this sounds ridiculous ! Everyone probably think that..oh,Kristin,she always says what she feels. Well..I mean...yeah,i won't hide my feeling if you ask me,but that's totally different from what i'm really care about.Un I don't know how to put it right. There are so many little and shallow things that don't even matter and you don't really have to think about how to react.I don't care so i can say it without thinking.But this is not make me who i am.I'm just being honest,but it doesn't mean that it's the entire me.Let me tell you something that you probably don't know about me.I'm very calm,i won't scream or yell even if i have some kind of accident or a very seriously injure.I talk to myself all the time when i'm alone.I don't have a sense of security and i don't trust people,not even myself.I think too much to sleep sometimes and i have nightmare every single night.And it's seriously hard for people to really know me very well,seriously hard.I mean i'm really weird!

說我很ㄍ一ㄣ 不管在別人的耳裡或是我自己好像都是某種可笑的話語 但要不是被這樣一說 可能自己也不會看清這個事實 連我自己都沒發覺看我戲演的多好就好 沒有欺騙任何人戴上假個性跟所有人來往 只是會讓別人知道的層面很有限 或許有些人永遠都不會真的知道我到底是個怎樣的怪胎 他們會憑著他們對我的既定印象繼續對我的一切有他們獨自見解的發展 but it doesn't really matter 那些都不重要 重要的是跟自己的對話

好像很抽象但是這些總是很難解釋

It's just that nothing really matter but me,a weirdo.