31.3.09

double standards or not is also a double standards

看舊照片很耗時跟精神
忽然用第三人稱看自己的感覺好特別
大力的盯著螢幕想著這個人是誰
很像靈魂出竅但是又找不到回去的殼
的確有差真的有差就著麼兩個月的差別
可以達到混淆視聽的程度怎麼會
照片好厲害的都會帶你重新回到那一天
你就會有點懊惱的覺得應該可以再玩的更開心點
你就會覺得如果當時可以百分百明白該做什麼就好
但關掉照片的剎那就又把一切忘的像從沒想過那樣
必須非常用力的把心智維持在正常的軌道
因為就算我在減肥我也不想真的變厭食
因為就算我在作夢我也不想永遠回不來
因為就算我不想說話我也不想永遠靜音
雙重標準其實是個好矛盾的定義
你永遠不知道別人到底真正真正真正在想什麼
就在他那對你微笑的表面下的心裡下的深層下的那最強大的潛意識
你永遠猜不中究竟是什麼
這是唯一可以確定的

get what

do you get it
which one will you choose
do you realise anything at all

30.3.09

where is my star star star

我的Star World消失了
那電視還有什麼好看的<誇飾謝謝>!!
這件事實已經困擾我兩個禮拜了!
第四台的人有義務把它變回來
請快回來!!!

would you like to get some help

可以幹麻在下午的時光
吃著有點噁心的紅豆薏仁椰果
打開iTune store聽完排行榜裡100首的30秒試聽
找到讓你雞皮疙瘩的預告片原聲帶
想著自己到底哪裡有問題
很快的就會跳到7:30洗澡時間
今天差不多結束了
Have you ever wanted to better yourself?
我也要讀"It's not your fault"
分不太清楚雞皮疙瘩是來自冷氣太冷還是太感動
sometimes we all need a little help
會不會雇人來讓你變的"more normal"
我明天還是吃山藥燕麥薏仁好了
我想我的問題就是問題不夠大多令人失望

How To Be

25.3.09

because my fingers are pretty long

I want to learn piano!!!!!!!!
And I want a Zebra!!!!
That's all for today!
The GQ photos are really funny, it makes me laught out loud for the fist time in the past four days! Somehow it's just hilarious!!
Seriously,Breaking Dawn is freking amazing!!!!

23.3.09

twilight zone between laught and weep


I'm reading Breaking Dawn
I've watched Twilight almost a million times
I'm reading breaking dawn
and it's really hard to describe my feeling
I want to finish it as fast as i can so i can know the ending
but i don't want to finish it
It will end soon
soon enough to against my will

16.3.09

it's so damn hot

This is my birthday card fromT!Only for me,how's that hahaha!!!!
I love it and i'm not just say it!!I'm freaking love it!!!!
It's so damn cute!!!Thank you so so much my dear!!!
And i love what you say in that card,well,i really love it,get it?!

15.3.09

Oren Lavie-Her Morning Elegance


HOW CUTE!!!!!

where the hill is my fucking time?

咆哮山莊進行到了一半 有點停不下來但又捨不的看完 週末又結束 昨天就像中了邪發了瘋的整理房間 會這樣形容真的是因為我從中午吃完飯就開始 然後再抬頭看時鐘時已經來到了晚上六點 然後被我割開的紙箱被我抓了就丟的那四大袋倚著牆角站在那 房間好大 這是為了以後鋪路 以後我真的要開始買書架買櫃子買所有3年前就該買的東西時 現在整齊會讓之後省下很多麻煩 只是不知道那個以後會是多久以後 禮拜四就可以回家但是時間永遠不夠 很快就又會到可悲的Saturday night 獨處的時間永遠不夠 耐心充不足電會有多危險 多了機會讓人指責你的一切 代價其實好低反正我也不跟人交際 沒了耐心可以把人嚇跑的話那我好樂意 嚇跑那些問著無謂的問題說著諂媚的話語還有試著從你身上得到可以讓他們七嘴八舌的資訊的那些人 學校藏著多少的幼稚 多到可以把人逼入牆角一語不發的等著 等著所有人都被摧毀消失 你只能自己默默的期望著畫下分格線 一條線把自己跟其他人分隔也讓一切都不再容易進入 防護牆的力量有多強大 大到無法反悔 如果無法忍受自己與自己相處那拜託不要去嘗試 而我的確樂在其中沒錯
禮拜一的開始 咒罵也已經開始 不夠自己的時間永遠不夠

11.3.09

i'm so glad that everybody is totally normal

Yesterday,Emma was talking about "friendship".
She asked us that "how long do you think your friendship can last?". But i was not really thinking about the question because i didn't want to upset myself. I don't have fath in humanity.
It's really great that nobody can actually read people's mind or it will be really terrible! I mean all the lies and the truth behind a hypocritical reaction,how can you endure that?
I still remember the feeling after i saw (What Women Want) by Mel Gibson. I was really scared,as if there was really someone who could hear my thought. And i was also terrified by the idea of reading mind. I will be so depressed!
But the idea comes out in a good way by vampire's selfless and perfect non-human morality...well, i think it's better that this kind of super power only exist in the unreal world!!
It's just great to know that everyone is just normal people.

3.3.09

Bad Ass

I don't wanna be The Lady of Shalott.
腦袋被制約 就好像你有話卻無法表達的語言障礙 卡住了腦袋像啞巴一樣該怎麼表達? Totally suck!不要再殘害我 就放任所有孩子去做他們想做說他們想說 下場一定會好很多 漸漸的了解到該如何呈現該如何反應 帶來的後果我不care 戲總是要告一段落該謝幕了這段
就在腦海裡遊蕩吧
And be a BAD ASS!!!

2.3.09

Weirdo

有些時候你會是最自在的自己 跟某些人相處的時候 某些或許值得你信任會讓你感到自在的那幾個 會讓你變回年紀比較小比較幼稚比較不顧一切不負責任的那個 或許我要講的跟你所認識的好像不太一樣 但我只能說我很會演戲 有很多話我都不會說也不敢說我會把他們留在腦海裡讓自己解決 我不問問題遇到困難也不問碰到事情也不會說除非我已經把它解決 任何狀況我prefer全都留給自己 就因為這樣所以我惡夢很多 夢話很多說的永遠都不是快樂的口氣
I know this sounds ridiculous ! Everyone probably think that..oh,Kristin,she always says what she feels. Well..I mean...yeah,i won't hide my feeling if you ask me,but that's totally different from what i'm really care about.Un I don't know how to put it right. There are so many little and shallow things that don't even matter and you don't really have to think about how to react.I don't care so i can say it without thinking.But this is not make me who i am.I'm just being honest,but it doesn't mean that it's the entire me.Let me tell you something that you probably don't know about me.I'm very calm,i won't scream or yell even if i have some kind of accident or a very seriously injure.I talk to myself all the time when i'm alone.I don't have a sense of security and i don't trust people,not even myself.I think too much to sleep sometimes and i have nightmare every single night.And it's seriously hard for people to really know me very well,seriously hard.I mean i'm really weird!
說我很ㄍ一ㄣ 不管在別人的耳裡或是我自己好像都是某種可笑的話語 但要不是被這樣一說 可能自己也不會看清這個事實 連我自己都沒發覺看我戲演的多好就好 沒有欺騙任何人戴上假個性跟所有人來往 只是會讓別人知道的層面很有限 或許有些人永遠都不會真的知道我到底是個怎樣的怪胎 他們會憑著他們對我的既定印象繼續對我的一切有他們獨自見解的發展 but it doesn't really matter 那些都不重要 重要的是跟自己的對話
好像很抽象但是這些總是很難解釋
It's just that nothing really matter but me,a weirdo.

1.3.09

Absurd

So what's going on with my life now?! It's really absurd to me that how i see things in such a different way right now. Maybe it's kind of temporary thing or it means that i really have changed somehow!!Ok,now i'm reading Eclipse and i'm start to wondering that should i read the original Breaking Dawn or should i just wait for the Chinese edition release!Well i don't think that my English is good enough to understand every word without reading Chinese edition first but it is too damn long to wait. 現在我的室友實在太詭譎但是是好的方面 她坐在床上看著她的腿毛然後講著一些很不重要但是誇張又好好笑的事情 懷疑著她會不會因為手上有太多痣然後死掉然後叫我去幫她拜拜 然後她很不喜歡穿褲子 但是她又不敢在我面前直接裸露所以常常要趁我不注意的時候快點穿上褲子 就這樣一直被分散注意力後我已經忘記我原本想打的是什麼了 whatever 至少感覺比較好了現在 焦慮可以暫時消失雖然我也不太了解原因 我的室友真的很特別 阿B你可以跟她認識一下!!!!I think you'll love her!!!!!!

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